So yeah, I’ve been hibernating a bit since May… I got a new job, got on the wagon, fell off the wagon and everything in-between. I know that I’ve said I’d be back at in the past and to stick around but the truth is I couldn’t even hold up that end of the bargain. Anyways I’m here now, in a great head space and with new focus.
I’m feeling really strong and determined today, I got a lot accomplished around our apartment and made very smart choices at the grocery store. Now the hard part is being able to let that strength and determination carry me through my entire journey. I guess it’s like they say: “Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail”.
Last week didn’t go quite as planned and I had fallen a bit off track.
I weighed myself on Saturday, to which I did not post because I was so upset with what it read back. While I must say, I did take into consideration that it was “that time of the month,” I was shocked at the fluctuation. I was back at the beginning and then some, weighing in at 203 pounds. How is it humanly possible to gain 11.7 pounds in a week?
Some of you may have noticed that I neglected my blog over the weekend as well. I didn’t want to lie about how wonderful my week had been or what I was going to have for dinner. I felt sick about it, I had let myself, my husband and the whole intention surrounding my blog down. I felt incredibly guilty and that led that led to feeling empty, feeling empty lead to M&M’s and other things. How is it that I fell off the wagon so quick? Not even a full week had passed?
I was angry, frustrated and upset. I thought I had way more will power than this.
When I got home last night I had a long conversation with my husband about getting back on track. In other words, I had a COMPLETE meltdown. I cried to him about how upset I was, how hard it is to break old habits and how I felt like giving up. We talked about what seems to trigger me to go off track and what we need to do to so that I stay focused. He reminded me of all of the support I have from him, my family, my friends and my blog. He also reminded me of the many reasons I want to do this. Man oh man I love this guy…
This morning I put on my big girl panties, quit my whining and started a new day… I look forward to sharing the rest of my week with you.