In my regular day to day life I am an Executive Assistant for the President of a large development company. This being said, I need to be extremely organized and on the ball at ALL times. Attention to detail and multitasking abilities are vital to my success.
Multitasking has always been something I have been really good at, my husband not so much, but hey? I guess that’s one of the many reasons he married me right?! At any given time I’m known to have more than one project on the go and when I do something I do it to the VERY best of my ability because I am also a perfectionist.
In most cases, like my job, a multitasking perfectionist is ideal. I used to brag that I could do it when I spoke about it in my home life as well. While I do understand that both of these traits are great to have, I really wish that I could just turn them off at times, a perfect example would’ve been last night…
As most of you read on Sunday, I was super excited about starting my learn to run class last night. Then Monday came, I had a horrible sleep that night and was dragging my butt around the office all day just dreading the thought of the run club. I tried my best to talk myself out of going, but 30 minutes prior, my willpower threw my running shoes in front of me and said “let’s do this”… so off I went. It’s amazing what putting on a pair of runners and some workout gear will do, I felt completely alive and motivated.
I got to my class, put my name tag on and sat on the floor awaiting our orientation. There were about 20 of us in the room and we started with an introduction. To my surprise more than 3/4 of the room had run at least a 5k previously and the remainder of the class were people coming back to re-learn after experiencing an injury. I double checked my sign up sheet to confirm I was in the right place and that this was a LEARN to run class?! Indeed yes, it was but did I really want to be running with people who already knew how to run? Or further more, people who had been taught by the same instructor I might add and now have injuries? I was skeptical but I went through with it anyways.
We did 20 sets of 1 minute of running and 1 minute of walking, and to be honest it was horrible. I kept trying to tell myself that “nobody said this was going to be easy, keep running”. For each set I was the very last person and the group kept running back to me to try and make me feel included but it was extremely embarrassing. I would’ve rather just been left behind.
I tried really hard, and I gave it my all, but really struggled. I had a cramp under my right rib the entire time and a throbbing shoulder that I had injured a week prior. At the end of the class I tried to have a bit of a chat with the instructor and that didn’t go very well either. I was telling her that I was having a hard time and asking her if there was anything she thought that I could improve on. He response was “Well first of all how do you think you should run?” I told her that I really didn’t know and that was why I joined the class. She told me with a slight attitude in her tone, that I could start with the proper footing and that I should be letting the mid section of my foot hit the ground first, rather than my heel. While I appreciated her feedback I would think that this is a fundamental and it should be shown/taught before the run? Anyways, long story short, I left feeling completely unmotivated and frustrated.
I guess my conclusion to this story goes a bit deeper than just a failed attempt at running. I have finally come to realize that I am not always going to do the job/task perfectly the first time and that I need to stop beating myself up over failed attempts. And sometimes as much as I like to think I am a multitasking Wonder Woman, I need to just take things on one at a time and give them the full attention they deserve. In saying this I mean, maybe I should focus one solid month on just my diet until it is under control and then add another thing to the mix the following month, and so on. I am hoping that by doing things step-by-step, my journey will be easier and I will be less likely to just give up on everything when one thing goes awry.