Are all addictions the same?

Food addiction

About a year ago, I came to the conclusion that I was a Food Addict. I would eat and not feel full, go out of my way for a doughnut and cry for things I couldn’t have.  I knew I had a problem and I tried everything to stop it, diet after diet, nothing worked.  One morning I got on the scale and realized that I weighed 215 pounds. Weeks prior I was below 200, convinced the digital scale was broken I took it back to Wal-Mart. When she asked the reason for my return, I simply said that it was inaccurate. After my return was complete, I marched straight to the scale section and placed a good old fashion analog scale on the floor.  I stepped on the scale hoping that it would be more forgiving then the digital option, but to my surprise,  it wasn’t. I stood there for a minute almost in tears and decided that, that was the night I was going to change.

For the past few months I have been writing about what’s been working for me and some of my successes. To a general reader it may seem that everything has been easy peasy for me but it hasn’t. I struggle every single day to fight off old habits while I create a new way of life for myself.  I get in arguments with my husband, I cry and there are days that I feel like giving up.  Sometimes I dream about all of the things I would binge on if I had the chance, but then I come back to the life I have created and realize that it wouldn’t be worth giving up for a slice of pizza or order of poutine.

Today I have come to the conclusion that all addictions are similar. In fact, a study done on food addiction recently revealed that eating highly palatable foods has similar effect on the brain as cocaine and heroin. The study showed that once a food addict experiences pleasure associated with increased dopamine transmission in the brain, they quickly feel the urge to eat again. The more the person experiences these feelings, the more they develop a tolerance to food.  This then leads to a decreased level of satisfaction, encouraging the addict to overeat and in some cases become obese.

This blog and my ENORMUS commitment to Team Beachbody is my “rehab” and I appreciate having all of you as my support group.

The good, the bad and the ugly

When I started this blog, it was with the intention to lose weight (the healthy way), get active and to inspire others. It was so that I would have a journal of my successes and hiccups along the way and most importantly, It was so that I could be living proof that If I could do it, so could you. My intentions will always remain the same and if you are looking for a quick fix or a miracle to happen over night, I promise that you won’t find it here.

I am going to be honest and tell you that my weight has been something I’ve struggled with most of my life and I know that it will continue for the rest of my life.  However, I do understand the actions behind the word “struggle” . In my previous way of life I would go on a diet, not follow the program and expect things to change. I would give up easily and be hard on myself for failing. Then out of nowhere I would regain my confidence and feel like a supermodel if I lost 10 pounds. I would look up the words “plus size” on Google and find the most beautiful model I could and feel great about my “curves”, like I didn’t need to change a thing. “I felt beautiful just the way I was”

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Now in writing this post, I’m not looking for a pity party or for someone to tell me I’m beautiful.  I truly do feel beautiful and more than confident in my own skin. I just want to be healthy,  I want to have energy, I want to live long and heck If I can squeeze into my skinny jeans while I’m at it, why not? I think that this is the first time I have ever actually REALLY wanted these things and understood how hard it is going to be to get there. I have decided that this is what I want for me and that I will have to work hard day in and day out to be successful. No more loosing 30 pounds only to celebrate by piling it all back on.  I am dedicated to the overall lifestyle (diet, exercise,mental outlook) and there is no turning back!

Anyways, the point I really wanted to get to before going off on this tangent was about doing things the right way and understanding change will not happen over night. As much as I would love to wake up and look like Kim Kardashian every morning, I understand that without hard work it will NOT happen.

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I admit it that I have been a sucker for a “loose 60 pounds in 3 months” fad diet and it did not work. I dropped the most I ever have been able to without any exercise and I gained it all back and then some in a shorter time frame. It’s truly mind boggling how many of these companies take our money, yet 37.5% or more Americans are still overweight. Trust me if there was a fix that worked overnight, Doctors would be prescribing it.

While on this topic I have to mention a post I saw online this morning that is making me absolutely sick. The link said : Aspire Assist = Medically Assisted Bulimia.

I’m sorry and I usually wouldn’t say this but WTF?! Bulimia is a serious disease that can lead to many other life-threatening issues and you can now buy an implant for it?! This is absurd and the sad thing is there’s probably a wait list for it too.  Fact is: people will get the implant, lose the weight, take it out and put a bunch more weight back on because they are not changing their lifestyle or their eating habits much like gastric bypass surgery.  Mind you, then again, people do this with regular diets too so who am I to judge? I just thought it was way overboard… What do you think?

I pinky swear I will!!

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So yeah.. The pinky swear thing hasn’t really worked for me in the past, so it’s time to get serious.

I have never really been a big fan of contracts(cellphone, gym etc) and I guess it’s because you have to stick to them. This being said, I think the only way to keep me on track is a contract, so here it is folks!

2013 Pinky Swear.. Ehemmm I mean Lifestyle Contract

I Christie R.  pledge follow the Slow Carb Diet as strictly outlined in the 4 Hour Body/4 Hour Chef for the next three months(03.27.13) .

I will under no circumstances cheat unless the day of the week is a Saturday and ONLY Saturday. It doesn’t matter whose birthday it is or what special occasion comes up, I am sticking to my guns!

I promise to stay attentive to my blog and its followers by updating it frequently with various things. Whether it be a recipe, a neat tip/trick or just to say “hello!”.

Should I be successful along my journey my oh so wonderful husband has agreed to take me on a cruise vacation of my choice  along with a shopping spree for the first bikini collection I will ever own.

I will also not complain or pout my way into getting my husband to cheat and/or out of this contract. For every minor infraction I commit a $10 fine will be levied against me. Should I choose not to pay the $10 immediately, the amount owing will be deducted from my husbands rent balance. I have also written a $150.00 cheque that will be cashed should I decide to blow it! :s

Obviously there are a few more things I will be working on this year to bring myself to my personal best that are not included in this contract. Rest assured that I will follow through with all of my resolutions, the above just seem to be the main focuses of past years and it is time to boot them off of the list.

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The journey…

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Here is to the start of something new.

A new beginning, a new me, a new wardrobe and maybe even a new you.

Follow me on my journey from Sin to Thin, From Flab to Fit but most of all from failure to success.

Today is the day I make a pledge to stick to a plan, to follow though with my goals and ultimately to pursue my happiness.

On a recent trip to see family I had a few deep conversations about what matters most to me and all of the struggles I have had. While speaking with someone near and dear to my heart the topic of weight-loss came up.  As weight-loss has been a constant struggle for me, I became a bit defensive when chatting at first (assuming the size 3 in front of me had no idea how hard it really is) but after a heart to heart  conversation she confessed that she too had once been in my shoes. This extremely fit beautiful woman in front of me was once very close to my current weight. This was a huge inspiration to me. I cannot begin to tell you how wonderful the rest of our conversation was. We realized that we both struggle with the same issues and that we have very similar habits. I cannot begin to tell you how nice it was to have a real life “before” and” after” in front of me.

So now you are probably wondering what’s next?

A plan

A lifestyle change

A support program and fellow bloggers I won’t let down.

Bye for now!

xo